I can understand both sides: staying strong by trying your experiment, and emailing because the urge is so strong! My T used to answer all my emails, but I wasn't always satisfied with her short replies. We decided I could still email but she wouldn't reply. At one time she suggested that I don't email her anymore, that I journal instead. Forcing me to do that didn't work for me. Yes, I'm very attached to her, but making me stop emailing her felt intolerable for me.

Knowing she rarely answers my emails (except about scheduling) is something I've accepted. But I still need to email her when I have unsettled feelings about my session. I think it's working. When I can hold onto the feelings I get from being with her, and can feel them inside of me, I don't have any urge to email her. Like the past 2 weeks. Fighting the urge, when I do have it, seems counterproductive for me. The goal is not to have the urge at all, and then I know I will be okay without my T.