I'm on the downward slide I think. Day 2 of random crying and around 12 hours sleep. Whats strange is that I'm still spending too much money (don't have my copay for psychiatrist anymore cause I wanted things). And my energy is through the roof after I get up. I want to si, but I promised I wouldn't. I'm so over not being right in my head. I feel like I'm broken like humpty dumpty and no one can fix me. Grrrrrrrrrrrr. I don't think zyprexa is right for me either. I'm over med games. And I feel that its just going to get worse after I see the psychiatrist. More med options and someone comfortable playing with them. I need to mellow out.

Tig