Hi, I'm sort of lost, I know I have some issues. I see a therapist once a week but I can't get my thoughts to words verbally. I can sometimes, but I'm not able to communicate what's really bothering me, a lot because I dont know. I'm in grad school and everyone thinks I'm smart and deserve to be there, but I have a tremendous amount of trouble reading things longer than a paragraph, writing on paper (i mess up a lot of letters), I can't listen in class past 15 minutes either. I'm getting by because I cram with lots of coffee the night before something is due and I get everything done. I'm also in recovery from drug addiction, but I very strongly believe I need drugs to do my school work and to sleep. I want to use, but I know I can't stop at "one." I also have some ptsd issues that make me want to use drugs more. I told someone once that I have this terrible time with school work and they said I just wanted prescription adderral cause I'm a drug addict and i'm being deceitful. That's not true. I just want help.