oh man, i'm so sorry.

it's really hard, y'know? i'm 21, diagnosed age 16, and for several years my mom was in total denial! it was just recently she started talking about "my condition". i promise that it gets easier to deal with if you tenacious about getting better and feeling good... the more you resign to being depressed, the more serious your depression gets. if you decide to be there for yourself and take care of yourself, a happy BP life is extremely possible.

it's really hard at age 18 too, because you already have a lot of life changes on your mind, and doctors/parents are more likely to see your problems as being a symptom of your age. but you know yourself... don't let anybody tell you it's freakin' PMS, or hormones. Even if it was, does that make it ok to feel depressed and anxious all the time? No. It takes a long time to find the right meds and the right therapist for you as an individual... don't resign yourself until you feel well taken care of.

you're gonna be ok!