Facing getting older is hard and being depressed doesn't help. My S/O is healthily so far except he has glocomma is his eye sight is getting worse. We are the same age and it is scary wondering if we will be able to take of each other.

Some of your depression may be caused by care taking is a tough job. And you are not get a lot in return. Unfortunately that happens when one person is unable to take care of themselves and leaves it to the other.

Maybe you should get out and socialize some. Be careful depending too much on hydrocodone it can be very addictive. I know it will be hard for you if you have to have surgery. Can your SO help out at all? Or is he totally disabled to the point he couldn't help at all? You sound like a strong woman. But depression plus your foot problem would definitely keep you on the couch. Depression has me on the couch,too. I hope you can find solution that will work for you. Best wishes.