Hi The Fox & the Hound, you're asking the question, you're spotting where you may be going wrong, you care........now how horrible does that make you?? Not quite as.......??
But personally, just like BeaFlower said it's really clear that you can be very thoughtful towards others? Out of your way thoughtful!! OK maybe you can do with tuning into some more "people skills" but your instincts when you notice people need help/support are way up there!!
Now back to some of the issues you've noticed yourself doing (hold onto your seat more positive things coming!! )
Making people sad: you know that you're not doing that because you want to see them sad!! I know you're not!! Maybe some problems you're having yourself which we/someone close to you who you can confide in/a professional can help with but you aren't deliberately doing that, are you? And you make them happy.....now how good is that??!! VERY GOOD, RIGHT!!
Annnddd......YOU'RE NOT HORRIBLE!!!
"I criticize people on what they do,& always say there bad at things.They tell me I make them feel bad,but I don't stop try doing it"
OK, maybe you want to see them doing things better, maybe you don't want to see them doing things they aren't that good at, maybe you want to see them showing their best in whatever they're doing??? Or maybe a little negativeness/irritability going on there as I know you haven't been feeling that good lately?? And how are you going to blame yourself for that considering what you've been going through??!!
Yes "people skills" might help in offering some constructive criticism, offering encouragement/support, recognizing the way they're feeling a little more as opposed to.....,
Annnddd......YOU'RE NOT HORRIBLE!!!
"I always want them to agree with me,or I get really mad"
Hey, you want to be liked, you want people to find what you're saying useful/helpful/informative, you want to teach people the "right" way as you see it?? Or some insecurities/vulnerability going on there?? And considering how you've been feeling......how are you going to blame yourself??!!
Yes "people skills" might help in considering and allowing different opinions which might actually enrich your own too, and it's going to help avoiding getting mad if people disagree but you can do that!! Really you can!! Again might need a little help with this but....you can!!
Annnddd......YOU'RE NOT HORRIBLE!!!
And the "I feel like everybody hates me. always feel like I'm waste of people's time"
Now maybe that feeling is coming down to depression!!
And that's maybe where your focus should be, on getting the help you need to find your way through this. You are important, whatever!!!
YOU'RE NOT HORRIBLE!!! You're pretty amazing under all of this!!! So just allow yourself to really shine with whatever help you need.
Best wishes
Alison