It sounds to me like you really need some help here. You certainly sound very very uncomfortable.

Do you have psychiatrist? Can you get a referral to one? I think you need some relief and pretty quickly.

From what you wrote, it sounds as though you are in an agitated depression. I've been there. Horrible Horrible feeling. But it can get better.

I hope there are some people you can reach out to tomorrow and can help facillitate that relief for you.