Dear T,
I still want to cancel for Tuesday. I don't see anything good coming from our session. A part of me wants to email you what I've said in my alone time so you can hear my pain. But, I'm vowing to avoid calling or emailing you. I may edit it and send you parts of it but I feel that you may need the whole thing. I could also write it out and bring it with me. Just know, I'm choosing to handle things on my own. I hope I don't have an attitude on Tuesday. Ugh, I want to cancel but you won't get that I'm hurting and I just want to let it all out. So, I guess I'll go and try to stay quiet and reserved.