I know what you are saying but you have not been in this life. My life is not any more difficult than other; don't get me wrong. I believe that I am lucky to have learned what I have. What you don't know is everything that has happened and what makes it hard to cope. It's not so easy to just walk in and say; hey I need help. I am not asking for medical or professional advice; I just need to vent. You also don't know what kind of a mother I am. I am very close to my kids. We have a strong bond. But do you see their sad faces when I have to take them to their dads? The messages I get from them when I am not home. No, You don't. This battle that we have gone through has taken alot away from me. I want to be with my kids for many years to come, but what's all going on in my life; the faith has gone. My ex-husband does not know what is going on with me at this time; or I would never see my kids. I do not neglect them in anyway; its the opposite. I have learned over time how to put on my happy face; not to show them what they do not need to see. And yes, I would give away my health to have them happy.
Thanks again.
Elizabeth