I wish that someone would have warned me about the overwhelming feeling of being unimportant that comes with preparing a move to a new country. People are less eager to bond with you or meet you and you're a less valuable employee. It hurts more when others don't make or keep plans with you. You suddenly have less of a purpose in your current home. This all comes on top of knowing that you're moving to the other side of the world where no one knows you.

I am 100% confident that I am doing the right thing, but it is hard to not get emotional right now as I am writing up Mandarin flash cards on the floor of my barely furnished apartment

My man bailed on seeing me tonight and won't explain why. I hate this.