I'm just feeling very off and I'm never sure how to correctly communicate this feeling. Numbness mixed with sinking mixed with anger. I don't know if that's accurate..

Things are just dim right now. I'm not sure who to talk to, I just make everyone feel helpless.

And I'm thinking about Ferris Bueller, specifically his friend Cameron, and how he just made the decision not to live the way he was living. I see my friends doing the same thing, seeing things they would rather be and working to become them. I'm afraid it may work like that for me, too, and that I'm just weak.