If I wasn't obsessed with her, I'd be obsessed with someone else. At least she is prepared to handle it and work with me on it. The only thing worse than intense mommy issues surfacing with a therapist is intense mommy issues surfacing with someone random. Well as far as mommy issues go. I imagine that romantic or erotic feeling would be even more invasive and hard to handle.

It gives me something to think about that is more positive than feeling completely empty all of the time and cycling through painful memories. It makes me feel loved and cared for and helps me keep my sui thoughts passive because I know how upset and guilty she'd feel if I did commit. Is it healthy to be *that* dependent on anyone or anything for that matter? Absolutely not. But it is a start.