You replied to my email, and explained what you really meant that I couldn't hear last week. You were validating, empathetic, reassuring, clear(which you know I need) and you got back to me quick smart given it was a Monday and I know what your schedule is like on a Monday morning.

But......

I just wanted you to call me, to make sure I was ok, to protect me, to help me feel better..........I wanted you to take care of me. I realise I may have wanted you to be the father that I never had. S h I t!!!!!!!!! What is that???

That I will probably never tell you. Although, I bet you already know after my outburst last week. Siiiiiigh.