I wish I could find a way to stop hiding in my house. I went out this weekend to a really safe friend's house and saw my man. Nothing really does anything. I just don't care. My life is falling apart around me from being unemployed now, and I care but I can't seem to DO anything about it. It's ridiculous and I feel like a piece of garbage.

I could move back in with my Mom. She said I could, but it didn't go well before. We have a tense relationship but I was glad when she at least gave me the option.

It's like it was the last time this evil depression took me, I can't find any emotion or motivation. I call myself lazy, but I know I'm not because I built all this on my own industry when I was ok!!!

Frustrated....