I wish I didn't feel so tired. Maybe I've gotten too lazy.

I don't understand how real anorexics are able to have such busy and productive lives. I consume several times more calories than a normal person should and I don't have the energy to do anything.

Meanwhile it feels like the whole world is screaming at me that I must learn how to eat less in order to have a successful life. That I must stop wanting food so much. If only I would stop wanting food so much, I would be much happier and smarter. If only I would stop wanting food so much, people would treat me like a human being who is good enough to participate in life.

I want to have a happy successful life. If only I could get control my selfish, greedy body and stop wanting food all the time.