Thank you both for your insight, he said for my benefit, that he wants us to do this thing where we isolate the thoughts surrounding it to where it is only out in therapy but that we would have to initially get It out 1st(ill admit I haven't exactly been thrilled or the most forthcoming about the idea of talking about these things, but who really is).. So the 1st hurdle is what is scaring me the most, he said that he will tell me as we go how he is going to help me with it, but 1st he needs to help me find a way to undo certain ways of thinking. Not sure what he ment by this.