First, I'm so sorry this has happened to you. I read that people with bipolar have the highest rate of stopping their meds when they've been stable for awhile.

I am utterly shocked that your best friend said good when you told her you wrote a note. That doesn't sound like a best friend to me, second I can't believe your mom said that!

You are back on meds, and you can repair what's happened. You have a good job you love.

Finally, you're here! No one here will judge you, think you're a bother or anything like that. You'll get support, understanding and kindness.

If you need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me. I don't get manic but I get hypomanic and it's just a lesser form.

Hugs to you.