He doesn't seem to think that me know entirely what he has planned would be beneficial when I asked since I have some anxiety already regarding the matter, he also said it needs to be done a certain way with me since there person who also went through it with me committed suicide recent (partly over the matter) I don't have much experience on this to be honest and up until recently, I didn't understand(and part of it I still don't) much about what happened, but now that this is going to be discussed I am worried how it will effect my daily life(despite everything I actually have a pretty decent life, I think that's why I didn't want to go down this route before)