Dear T

I have no idea what happened in todays session. I spent ages looking forward to it and then spent the whole time being argumentative with you, blocking you, dismissing you and generally being a pain in the bum.
I just don't know why I did it.
I am just tired of it all. Tired of battling with my demons, it sometimes just seems easier to not bother.
You saw me at a really low point today, I hate that you saw me like that.

But I am glad that we sorted it out and that we have another session for later on this week. I hope its better than todays.