Moving is traumatic, whether you move across town or across the world. I grew up moving internationally every few years and I never established long term deep friendships. People on the move wagon consciously or unconsciously hold back in the friendship/relationship department because they don't want to get hurt when the person moves on. You know that saying, out of sight, out of mind. It doesn't matter how hard you try to keep the relationship, it fades, people grow older, have families, have new lives. The relationship we had with them remains stuck in the past, the day you said goodbye.

Your local friends probably are feeling abandoned because you are leaving, and probably a little jealous because you are going on a great adventure. And they probably don't realize this is what they are feeling and that it makes you feel sad and uncomfortable.

To many probably-s..... I have a foggy brain, can't seem to talk or write.

Good luck! I would say I'm jealous, but I'm done with my long distance journeys.