Well saw the T tonight and feeling relieved.

That horrible task I was given (asking 5 people for 3 characteristics and 1 constructive criticism) was not really touched on... to be looked at next session but she apologised for overkill I got from one chap and said that that wasn't quite the intended result.

But yeah, anyway... she scaled me on dissociation and revealed that it isn't anything to worry about, that I'm on the overwhelmed side of it and that it can and will be managed.

That the sounds and voices are ok... again, an issue of me being overwhelmed and has started me on a path of mindfulness techniques which she was both surprised and pleased with how quick I was able to calm myself on the first go... said it was an indicator that my trauma was after year 5 which = I had what I needed by then to draw upon stuff.

As for the times when I start to go numb and flooded with thoughts and ideations... such a simple item was given - an elastic band to be put on my wrist. She's asked me to ping it (not hard) with the idea that the focus and very mild pain on that will help ground me.

Feeling a little bit optimistic again, she definitely prepped me up and I have enough trust to believe what she said... so yeah... fingers crossed. Hopefully things are back on the road to improvement.