I agree,
the antidepressant can throw you into a mania, but also being very frustrated can cause these same reactions. WE are allowed to get angry...learning how to verbalise our anger and express our feelings to very hard to do if you have never been able to do this before.
A good therapist can also help you.
I am one to believe that we can't take normal anti depressants until our moods are stabilized it can and will throw me into a mania.
I am sorry that this is so hard ...
Hang in there things will get better for you.
Fall down 7 times get up 8....
(((HUGS)))
bizi