Maybe my goal in therapy this time around should be to accept myself the way I am instead of trying to fix myself (and pathologize myself in the process), and not to worry about whether every single little thing I do is wrong, or natural, or whether it stems from attachment issues, or if it's normal or not...and maybe how to accept other people caring about me without worrying all the time about screwing it up. If a T could care about me and stick it out for the long haul, that would probably help a lot...