An important thing to remember here is that God absolutely LOVES a unique mind. I've lived with mental disabilities most of my life, so believe me when I say that I empathize with you and in no way am I cheapening your experience. That being said, it is minds like yours that make this world a beautiful place. Nikola Tesla, John Nash, Beethoven....these are just a few names in a very extensive list of people who had recognized mental illnesses who were instrumental in making this world the wonder that it is. If you don't have people who can see and experience things beyond the norm, you never have progress. You might be closer to God than you think. Ever stop to think about what kind of mind it took to create the platypus? Just maybe God is a little crazy too.

Now winter is my memory, then autumn, now summer's light. So every day from now will be another season into night.