Over the past week... I've had three dreams about me getting forcefully sent to an eating disorder clinic.

Dream 1: I was really weak from not eating and while I was in a session with my therapist, I passed out. She couldn't get me to respond, so she called an ambulance, then my parents, and we all met at the hospital. I woke up (in my dream) to my therapist and my parents sitting by my side, waiting for me to wake up, and they told me that the following week I would be leaving to go to an eating disorder clinic.

Dream 2: I was in the clinic, and I was doing my daily vitals check and the nurse wouldn't tell me my weight, checked my body for signs of self harm, and then we had to go eat lunch. When I wouldn't eat, they made me choose between an NG tube or to start eating. I woke up terrified.

Dream 3: I was at church and my friend had 3 girls with her that she wanted me to meet. So I went over there and the girls were actually undercover cops and they put me in hand cuffs and took me to the doctors office to get the numbers needed to send me to an eating disorder clinic.

I've been struggling with my ed for about 4 months now, and my therapist told me that at the rate I'm going, I'll probably need to go to the hospital in a month. Since then, I've been trying to get myself to eat on a daily basis... but I don't want to get better. I'm just terrified that I'll be sent to a hospital soon, and that is the most terrifying thing in the world to me.

What could these dreams mean?