I felt like "it" was gone between me and my t too. He was kinda cranky last week. He even used the b-word on me - boundaries. I was like wtf? I wasnt ready for it to be over. I was afraid i was going to revert back to being a huge douche. He just helped me see today that he was still there, and that the reasons for my feelings were based in the past, of no one being there. I was also able to connect it to some stuff from my previous session, connecting disordered eating and body image and non-acceptance, and again, family rejection. I think "normal" people dont have to deal with this just to get thru the day. Its like we have to consciously remember to breathe.