Thank you all for you support.

fayerody- No I don't see a therapist. My insurance is not that great and my job does not pay that great. Should I just suck it up and go?

dreamgirl30- Thank you for your insightful words. I will take care of myself. It is a struggle somedays but I hope with time it will get better!

jinnyann- No Worries. I figured it was a computer prob or something. I got through the day/night. things are better for now. well that is relative with people like us right? lol. Anyway I will PM you if I need anything. Thank you

lazarou- No your words are just like I would use. The relationship was great. But in the end it came down to the fact that she could not handle me. I tried to tell her. To help her understand but in the end she is damaged herself. So it sucks. But anyway, I am glad to have found this place. People that know what I am going through and are willing to help. It is a huge plus!

Thanx again to you all!

Justin