I'm so sorry that this has been so tough for you.
I know how hard it is to live two different lives...the inside one that no one knows about and the outside one that you show everyone else. It zaps the energy out of you and is just plain exhausting.
It may not feel like it right now, but you are strong. And you can be strong enough. So hang in there, friend.
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Yes. Jesus is the reason I am still alive today.
Diagnoses:
MDD, BPD, PTSD, OCD, AN-BP
(I don't define myself by my personal alphabet up there, but I put it there so that maybe somebody won't feel so alone
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