Suicide is a one way street. Even in the blackest of times there is the possibility that you could turn your life round and enjoy the rest of it. The inevitable comes to us all but why preempt it and lose the chance of happiness in what is left of it. I've certainly thought of it more than once and used the mindset 'well, i'm going to die anyway so what does it matter' and existentially speaking that is probably equally valid.. Pessimist , optomist or realist?. Glass half full or glass half empty. I want to enjoy the rest of my life. I've recently met someone with whom i want to share it with and i want us to do so much together. Yesterday i spent the whole day in good company birdwatching, sunny, not a cloud in the sky and i felt glad to be alive. I want more of those moments. i'm tearing up cos that is quite a change in my psyche and quite emotional. I wish you well. Love and peace xx