I haven't really tried much else that I can remember besides the note taking, so suggestions are welcome. That being said, I tend to find a lot of reasons NOT to do something, so be warned.

As for Michanne, you do sort of seem to get it, although a cellophane wrap isn't necessarily the way I'd explain it. Anyway though, It's not just enough to live in the moment, get my kicks in the making of it, I need something more. I need a finished product to show for the work I've put in, not just to show myself or others, but because the work isn't just a self explanatory piece or a boggling surrealist mindscrew, it's a story. It would probably help if I explained that I'm more of cartoonist/comic kind of guy and not a traditional artist. And no, I've never read the book, but I might look into it now.

My main problem is that I can only feel what I want, and I can't put it down on paper despite knowing the kind of message I want. It's like there's a literal block, a wall I can't climb that everyone else can, and every now and again the frustration builds up and I get frantic, like I did when I made the first post, desperate for some sort of explanation as to why I can't put the swimming thoughts in my head together long enough to do anything with. I can't express what I need to, because I don't know what I need to express, just that there's something that urgently needs to be expressed. It's as if I vaguely know my destination but I'm blind.

And please, if I need to clear anything up and clarify, let me know. Most people tend to completely misunderstand what my point is, and I have trouble getting it through to them.