I have intense suicidal thoughts at times, a plan and even a date from when I am in that dark place. What I have not done is bought the supply's to complete it. I would recommend getting rid of the resources you will use to complete the suicide. Additionally, something I have noticed that helps with my suicidal ideation is working on something I care about that is unrelated to my disorder. For me, I write. I notice on the days I am writing thoughts of suicide really aren't there. My therapist mentioned that suicidal thoughts can be automatic thoughts and working on a hobby that I like keeps those thoughts at bay. Additionally I am not sure if you work or are on disability, but if you work, maybe you can pick up extra hours. Also I would call the utilities and explain you are having a rough patch. There may be assistance programs that they know about, that you could qualify for. Good luck.