You don't need to be perfect to be in a relationship, or relationships would never happen. You need to be yourself and try to be kind. Of course you'll hurt someone. Someone will hurt you too. That always happens. But you'll have great times as well, you'll learn, you'll grow, you'll connect. It's ok to make mistakes. In fact, it's absolutely mandatory. You're not as broken as you think. Everyone has issues. I do not mean to make light of yours. But many many people have gone through similarly difficult situations and have relationships. Plus, you are actively working on yourself and trying to be self aware, which many many people don't, so you have that advantage.