I had postpartum depression with both my children - it took years after each one to finally over come it. People do not understand what depression is unless they suffer from it. It is the most crippling illness I have ever experienced - there is no future, no sunshine just this big black hole that quite literally envelopes you. You feel unable to do anything even the simplest things are just too much. Your thought ruminate as you try to push your way through the blackness in your mind to the sunlight where you can begin to function again.