Also I would call the utilities and explain you are having a rough patch. There may be assistance programs that they know about, that you could qualify they said Friday was the last day to get an extension but I didn't realize until Monday, welfare says because our income is still positive at the end of bills they can't help. My husband went to the next counties resources center to see if they can help. He didn't want me to go so he's probably telling them l ****ed up because I was depressed.

He wants me to look over my notes and make a very detailed letter about everything I can remember, (from my depression) including what I was seeing that made me take my prn and everything I did and didn't tell T and why. I omitted several things from Monday's session (he has no idea that I outright lied at times) when usually I'm tmi. He just wants her to know how bad it is in my head even if it's after the fact, even if he doesn't know, " so my head can't tortcher me that long" Nov-march. I also have to make an appt with pdoc because I'd miss it anyway.

The kids are coming home today. We're all okay and t wants me to find some respite care because being 24/7 parent/wife isn't good for me. I'm suppose to stop holding my breath for the next episode because I have a healthy family that I should be having fun with.