I guess you are right- I was probably initially more mad at her bc I wanted to convince myself he was still a good guy. As demented as that sounds.

I think his fiances' life will never be the same. I mean speaking from experience- it'll be hard for her to trust guys again. And it probably ruined their relarionship.

I should take responsiblity for texting him and sending him stuff right!? It's my fault too?

I called my counselor. I am still feeling really bad. I also used a paperip to cut - or attempt to. It made a scratch...can't even do that right.