Thanks, r010159
I'm sorry about your father and his relatives, psychehedone! It's really admirable for someone who's seen such terrible things to recover (personally, I see it as a recovery) and become a (excellent) neurosurgeon.
Maybe you're right about medication, yet I want to take this chance and see how I manage without it. Even my psychiatrist told me she doesn't want to give me any meds yet because my concentration difficulties would be worsened by them. But who knows, maybe tomorrow I'll be psychotic and meds would become a necessity.