I agree, I have made a mess out of a few situations by expecting communication when I knew there would never be any. I know firsthand how hard this is and I feel for you. I am working on getting over something right now and I understand that you feel like your heart is being ripped out. Try if you can to take one day at a time, take some time to think about what you want. Put yourself first, only you can decide how you want your future to end up.