I feel myself breaking inside. I've lost everything and then my partner came to be. I can't break it would kill her. Everything is collapsing on me. The harder I try the worse it gets.

I can't stand it. Work sucks more and more but because of the job market I'm stuck. I have to work to pay my bills, I even have side jobs since my company doesn't pay well. I spend up to 4hrs a day driving and hate it. I get migraines everyday.

I tell my partner nothing since every time I've opened up she cries, or tells me to get over it, or tells me it has nothing to do with me. I want it to get better. I've wanted my 28yrs to show some kind of improvement but it hasn't. Every time I thought it was getting better something awful happens.

I'm not meant to ever be happy or even content.