My pdoc suggested therapy 2 years ago, after 4 sessions I ran away! Lol, incidentally I also ran away from meds.

This time around he and I had a good chat about why I didn't want therapy even though I know I could use it...

Turns out I tried out the wrong type of therapy last time. I don't want to be scratching open old wounds and talking about my childhood all day. It just undoes all the work I've put in to heal and grow over the years.

So he recommended CBT this time around because the only available DBT group is a fulltime commitment of daily IOP (Intensive Out Patient) sessions and I need to work. He has asked me to commit to therapy until the end of the year, working on correcting my distorted thought patterns. And even though my past will have to be referenced from time to time, it will in no way be a focal point of my therapy.

This to me is a much more appealing type of therapy than analyzing my brains out, I over analyze enough as it is... and hellz to the yeah I am ready to commit to this!

I meet my new T on Thursday, kinda nervous, but thankfully not anxious yet.

I know I need therapy because it will help me gain more effective coping skills and make me easier to live with as I also have BPD and give my bf hell quite regularly because of it.