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Old Mar 25, 2014, 04:49 PM
Anonymous100103
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Would this be considered stuck in a thought loop?
My neighbor really upset me last night. I was building two bookcases to put along the wall we share. She is very noisy and I just cannot deal with it anymore. I googled how to soundproof a room for a cheap price. Lining the shared wall with bookcases was an idea. So I'm installing these two bookcases next to the other two I have on this bedroom wall. I get the first one in no problem. The second one I am anchoring to the wall. This required me to hammer on the wall for a few seconds just as I did with the first. This annoying neighbor starts beating the heck out of the wall on her side. Now it's only 8:20pm. I'm seconds away from being finished and she does this. I screamed back at the top of my lungs you can shut the hell up! I was so angry that she did this. Within seconds I hear her come out of her apartment and I'm standing in the middle of my bedroom floor. My curtain is pulled back. I see her stretch up onto her tip toes to look up into my window. I looked at her very mean. She turned her head quickly and went back into her apartment. I have never said one single word to her about all the noise she makes and the fact that she brings her dog outside off a leash and doesn't pick up after the dog. And the one night I make a little noise she wants to try and beat the wall down. Her actions sent me into a rage! It took me forever to get to sleep last night and then I had a really bad dream that woke me with severe anxiety and racing heartbeat. I just keep playing it out over and over in my mind and I feel such rage towards her. It was her fault in the first place that I even had to install more book shelves in my bedroom. Here I was trying to solve a problem and she just got me all fired up! I can't get it out of my mind. What do y'all think? I know I'm not normal for this but am I stuck in a thought loop??? Any information would be greatly appreciated.
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