I'm to the point in my life to where if I ever trust someone enough again to even be open to dating or getting involved, I really need someone who won't shut me out when I am depressed or overwhelmed.
I've never encountered a relationship where I could be that open, without being told to get over it. I have mental illness. I need someone who can be there for me, not brush me off or cheat on me the moment they can't deal with me or show support. That just makes things worse for me and I get even worse in my condition and lose myself completely further. Its like the world is so afraid of us.
I just think your partner should be more compassionate with you and work with you. Its not your fault you feel the way that you do. Being shut out is not the answer. I do hope she can come around for you and work together with you. Nobody seems to understand this, at least not in my experience. Everyone in my life has always taken the easy way out. They have no idea how much unconditional love and support can truly make a difference. Hang in there.