i am willing to admit that i have a problem with food and how it affects the way i feel about myself. your comment about not having any physical problems yet but still having anorexia is perhaps true. i'm afraid that they won't be satisfied until i really am fat. i saw my therapist today, and i am going to discuss partial hospitalization tomorrow with specialists at an eating disorder clinic kind of nearby. i'm hoping that maybe i can meet with a dietician and just try to follow what that person tells me to see if that will work. i hate this obsession with food, but i don't want to be fat or think i'm fat, and i really don't know how i can give up so much time to be in the hospital! have you ever tried a program that is partial hosp or intensive outpatient?