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No my T has never said my name except in email or the couple times she had too phone me. But I also have never said her name. Even in my journal I refer to her as T. Somehow using names breaks the fantasy in my mind I think. If I had to say her name it would make it so real. If she said my name? well I don't know, I just dont want her to use it. I just like her smiling gestures instead.

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I do the same thing in my journal, Mouse. And when I talk about therapy with my husband, I just say "my therapist." I never say his name, other than the one time I explained in my post. Oh, and once I said it when I had to talk about him to my pdoc. They work in the same place and obviously know each other and they share information on me (I tell T to tell my pdoc stuff about my symptoms b/c it makes it easier), so I would feel stupid if I was like, "My therapist said...." So I'll say his name, but really really quickly, like the big dork that I am.

But I'm glad you posted that, Mouse. I couldn't really figure out why I am like this, but what you said really makes sense.... It all goes along with my idealistic view of him.... With a name, then he is a person. But without a name, he is the almighty T, equipped with superpowers.