Ive been taking the same meds for 5 years now with only one change 6 months ago we added zyprexa prn for psychotic episodes. The problem I am having no has been going on for about a year. I've always had only vague ideas of things I did while manic. This is different. Its ordinary things that I'm not remembering. Just today a friend asked me about something she talked to me about yesterday but I don't remember anything about yesterday. Its like it never happened or happened to someone else. Some of the things that I have apparently done are totally out of character for me. I'm really worried. I asked my pdoc about memory problems with my meds and he said it may be harder for me to learn new things if for example I went back to school. I was afraid to tell him about the lost days cause Im afraid he might want to put me in the hospital. EVen right now I hear whispering and the shadow people are watching me. My meds are Geodon 80 mg 4 x day, wellbutrin 450 mg, paxil 60 mg and Ativan 1 mg prn up to 3 xs a day. Zxprexa 20 mg prn psychosis. I hardly ever have to take the Ativan. My pdoc is retiring next month and i'll have to find somebody else and that has me worried too.