I have start up costs. Yes, extra money would help, but I'm of the sort who would rather do nothing (even live on the street) than work a job I hate. It's more than just dull, I would just genuinely dislike what I'm doing.

I also feel sad because I wonder if I'm being stubborn by questioning the free will we should all be in theory born with. I feel sorry for all the people who don't have the right to choose, and wonder how they can be happy doing what they dislike.

So, I'm thinking, should I travel locally anyway? It would eat into my savings a bit, but not TOO much, and it would truly clear my head. Not likely I'll gain the motivation to get a job here anyway, most likely would just stay at home and "rot".

I wish I had gotten a job last winter, but I was so depressed from seasonal affective disorder, now I'm just antsy, tired, and raring to get out of here.