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Old Mar 25, 2014, 10:31 PM
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Originally Posted by CantExplain View Post
I look forward to reading your success story!
Haha, to make my current story a success, it would need a miracle.

But I can tell you my therapy success story too.
I only went back to therapy after a long, long time without it at the beginning of the year. I felt really broken because of the prognosis I had been given and my body became weaker and somehow I wasn't as successful any more to keep my past at bay. I was always very strong and independent and made a good life for me, but suddenly it all slipped away. I suffer from PTSD and the symptoms were just awful. My coping mechanisms failed suddenly and I needed help. I have a severe CSA background that included periods of systematic torture.
So I sought a therapist, found a wonderful one in my first attempt and blurted out what my problems are. I was clear about what I wanted and needed and the limit on my life also meant I didn't have much time to "slowly" process my feelings or emotions. I didn't have the "luxury" of going slow at all and so my first sessions were just spilling out everything, very difficult things and embarrassing things..
My therapist knew intuitively that what I needed most was someone to bear witness to. I wanted the story out, the secrets and the shame.
Amazingly, blurting it all out without processing helped me immensely. It was like I said something and immediately it lost it's power.
Then we went a little slower, working through things. I see my therapist twice a week, sometimes three times a week. She was gentle at first but I asked her not to walk on eggshells because she knew my diagnosis. That helped me a lot.
Now, three months later I feel like I have regained my strength emotionally and I feel freer than before, much more content than before.
The flashbacks fade, the nightmares get less.
Yes, I have a few huge issues left.. in particular a certain fear I can't seem to shake and it makes me very frozen and is very unhelpful in my situation. And of course, the added difficulty of my health situation is not easy - in fact it's incredible frustrating and frightening.
But as far as my inner issues go and getting me back to the person I was before my breakdown, my therapy has worked wonders and I am incredibly grateful for my therapist.

That's my therapy success story in a nutshell :-)
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