I haven't had a definitive diagnosis of BP, but it was an area my psych was looking into.
I am 24 weeks pregnant and stopped taking seroquel just before I found out. I stopped taking it as I couldn't deal with being an angry zombie. My gp said it was not the drug but was the other "poisons" I was putting into my body, namely sugar, caffeine and alcohol. I haven't been to a gp regarding my mental health since. I also haven't been back to the psychologist. Putting up the facade of being Ok enough to talk is exhausting and I find I just lie to make it easier.

Right now, I'm going through either extreme mania where I am either on top of the world or I'm extremely aggressive to my family.
The anger leads to guilt. Guilt because I am being a ****** mum to my 5 year old and not being tolerant enough of him or giving him quality time. Guilt because my partner doesnt deserve this either. Then comes the depression. This weekend I wanted to give up completely because I feel I'm failing my family so badly. The house is a mess, dinner is a major task that I dread, I don't want to sit with my son because I hate when I get mad at him for little things. I just want to be alone. I told my partner I couldn't deal with this or the baby and I wanted to leave once the baby was born. Leave him with the baby because I feel that at least the baby won't have to deal with the hurt of me either being a crap mum or dealing with his mum taking her life.
I don't know how to get help. The many docs I've seen try to give me other solutions to my problems, things like diet changes. I can't ever get a pdoc referral as they never think it's necessary. I don't think they believe me how serious this is, and it's not just the depression but the mania is what really needs help and is what usually leads to the depression. I was taken to the hospital before I was pregnant after an episode of anger against my partner and attempted self harm and they would not refer me to a psych unless I stayed inpatient. I lied that I was Ok and went home. The psychologist I saw obviously couldn't prescribe anything and so told me to see a psychiatrist. Without a referral I don't know what to do.
I feel it's hopeless to even go see a psychiatrist if I'm pregnant as the idea of the drugs scare me.

Does anyone have any suggestions for dealing with BP and pregnancy. When I'm lucid like this I get that my baby will need me but sometimes doubt takes over.