I am not sure anymore what dissociation really means... Yesterday I eventually got the diagnosis: DDNOS (Dissociative disorder not otherwise specified) - when I looked it up, it actually can be everything I've asked my T what she thinks about c-PTSD, and she said that it is almost the same but as c-PTSD is not an official diagnosis, she would use DDNOS... Thus, it means that I do dissociate and my T says that I do that pretty often; however, I never lose the control, I always remember everything, I can stop it when I want to etc. It's more like a chronic day-dreaming or e.g. I stop listening when the topic is boring or stressful... So day-dreaming and not listening are my major symptoms which "show" that I dissociate...