rain I think it is great that you seem to be getting what you need from your T . I hope after this seminar she is more trained in the use of touch in therapy then she was in the past .and is more prepared for what it might bring up in you and in herself. so that she doesn't feel the need to take that away from you again. I understand the mistrust . maybe a way around this is to make her be very clear about her boundaries. I mean very clear .ask questions and leave nothing for interpretation. it is something new and could be a great thing for you if it is what you want .as long as boundaries are very and nothing is left for you to run wild with interpretations. im glad to see you are seeming to look more towards way to heal so you can not need T so much instead of ways to continue T forever