I'm right there with you. I am taking one medication for Bipolar 1 but am in a deep depressive state now, I feel no enthusiasm for anything. It's been really hard to just get out of bed which has made job hunting very difficult.

I also suppress and second guess my feelings as I'm somewhat fearful I will be perceived as being manic if I appear energetic or enthusiastic. But I think that attitude needs to be let go. I need to continue to focus on things that are interesting to me, that make me feel. I would suggest the same to you. Cooking something nice is a good start. Pets are also great.